so I realized something. and it’s important. which is why I’m writing it. and maybe no one reads my blog anymore, but I don’t give a flying crap.
I am 27 years old. Ever since I was 13 I wanted to be in a band. I wanted to be a drummer/back-up singer in a band. The hardest step for me to take is actually *starting* the process. I don’t know why. No, that’s a lie. I do know why. because I think once I finish my first song it will not be good enough. and I know how to get over it. just write a song, any song, be it shitty or the next “sing” by Travis. write lyrics, any lyrics, just as long as they mean something to me. and I know that it just *has* to get better. that’s the way of things.
I have gone to many DC shows featuring local talent. Nearly every single time, as I’m watching the show I think to myself, “I could do that.” and I also add “better” to the end of that sentence.
I may not be playing drums, but viola is awesome and I can play several other instruments passably well, and can manipulate them to my advantage very well.
I’m reading this book called “the inner game of music” and it’s for classical musicians to help them get rid of all the doubts in their head and achieve what they’ve always wanted. I’ve only read 60-something pages and it’s already helped me an insane amount. I can’t imagine what it’ll be like when I’ve finished the book. at any rate, the author mentioned a man who wanted to sing tenor in the Metropolitan Opera, so to remind him of his goal every day, he had put up a gold star on his bathroom mirror so he would never forget his dream and give it everything he got.
well, it’s my turn. I”m putting my gold star on my mirror and I swear, I will have an album of songs by the end of this year. keep your eye out for me.
I’ve been in San Fran the past several days, and have come across these wonderfully christmas-y sights. So here are some of them. the above link is Union Square, just a few blocks from my hotel. There is also the Macy’s with huge wreaths in every single window, and the wonderful trolley car ride across the city. The trolley car had christmas lights hanging off of it. great!
Merry Christmas!!
I think I’m going to do this song, along with the Rainbow Brite theme song, for the next SfB residency night. Or maybe Jem. or maybe all 3! wooo!
On the drive home from DC9 last night, I popped Kenna on the stereo. I have forgotten that his first album, New Sacred Cow, is so freakin’ awesome. And so now, I give you “Siren.”
the boot
show last night was fun. driving the 7 hours round-trip was rough.
it was interesting to have a show sans guitars. it made my part much more audible, and I filled in with chords and tried to sound guitar-y at times. I think it worked, though. we got asked back in november, but we aren’t doing any more shows this year. it was nice to know that we were received well.
I need to clear my musical palette, I think. I need to play and write some music that is simple and non-fussy. requires no thinking. i have been doing that a lot lately and it’s worn me out. not to mention practicing for Philly is harrowing.
speaking of that, I should go do that. I must push through on songs that I come up with. I get halfway done with them and then get too scared to go on, thinking that I’ll make it sound horrible. shame on me! if the lyrics suck i can change them. if the melody sucks I can change it, too. no more self pity!
K
